Light and its Effect on the Beast
(scenes from the Book of John)

As a young believer, I was told; “read the book of John first, it’s the “Gospel of LOVE”. Instead, I started at Genesis and in a straight line march through, soon recognized that the entire Bible told a story of Superior Love on every page. Therefore, upon finally arriving at the Book of John, I was expecting an explosion, a culminating firework display of good feelings and tenderness. I found instead that “love” while not absent, was not my big impression.

It takes me longer to read this book than the others in the Bible. I am often paralyzed for long moments by the discourses of Jesus. The startling things He says about Himself, coupled with the forceful way He says them. I read the verses more than once, slowly mouthing the words to be sure I understand them correctly. John’s Jesus is bold, fearless, unambiguous, confrontational, provocative. He is not discreet. He does not whisper. He speaks with a tongue of fire that flushes blood to the cheeks of all who hear. I tremble and fear tightens my throat.
This is Warrior. King. God.

It is clear that the Creator of the Universe is speaking, and I am to give Him my complete attention. Unblinking, He looks me in the eye and firmly states; “If you do not believe that I Am He, you will die in your sins.” He does not plead or cajole. He warns. Make no mistake. I AM the ONLY way.

His sure tone produces two emotions in me.

The first one is deep, deep fear. He is positively sure of what He says.
The second one is deep, deep relief. He is positively sure of what He says.

As created being I am terrified of separation from my Creator. At the same time I cannot fully surrender to His Hand, unless I am convinced that my Master is not only absolutely strong, but also absolutely sure.

Thank you Father, for writing the book of John for me.
Ah yes, I see it now.
Love.